Conversation between husband and wife

Everything of mind has its dual accomplice, it is mostly only babies who laugh from the belly centre always.
Most adults do occasionally, and some not at all, for them all is false laughter though they may never be aware of the difference or slightly aware, so many colours of the rainbow to choose from.

Some laughter can have malicious intent, and there is laughter of a saint or baby

No matter what the intent of the other, we have choice what we do with the intent within ourselves. Do we take it into your system and let others control us, or do we become masters over self and see, understand, recognize all of which it comes. It is our choice in each moment in each situation, this makes that it is never someone else its fault then our own if we want to speak of fault, blame blablabla....

We can still re-act to the laughter but now in full awareness functioning as a mirror reflect back what the other tried to send out.

If laughter implies a threat that means there is something to lose, how much do we bargain for in this, how far do we walk the road of a saint before we say that is what I want to keep, and that is what I will let go of?

If we are not willing to let everything go, then just one thing will have the power to control us, how many are ready for this?

Considering the amount of enlightened beings walking this earth as far as i have come across them: 000 000 000 001% of the human population to be precise, including myself. I am attached to being with you. This will prevent me from becoming enlightened. I have realized the nature of mind but did not reach enlightenment where you speak of.

Then we are doomed to be controlled by that environment all the time we cannot detach completely.

Yes we will have trouble staying fully aware and experience moments of being identified strongly with our identity and all that comes with that. lost in hell while we can live in heaven. Our fear keeps us in hell because we are addicted to our fear of dying help!!!!!!

And likewise I cannot be enlightened when I am attached.

Yes what goes for a part goes for the whole.

It is my ego that loves you being attached to me.. It is my so called higher self that wishes you freedom. While in identity i am very selfish and wash myself in your attention because it helps me to stay in the illusion of being alive. I as an identity do not dare to let go of my role as your wife. When aware I am free of all but only for small moment am I able to resist the pull of the ego. I am addicted and think like an addict : one day I will leave the ego I will become able to stay in enlightened state. Always tomorrow one day, always an excuse not to push for the ultimate. I am an addict even saying that is a justification why I make myself believe I am not going for the enlightened state. Help!!!!!

I do not know much except that I do not know anything when I am identified with mind.

One must be courageous.

You know as much as me then, and that is we are both going to leave these bodies behind and all that the body has become attached to, we know this and that dictates what must be done, yet we rather go on hearing our lies than accepting the truth, until we are strong then we can indulge in our addiction for each other by drinking the wine, and when the soul and spirit is ready to leave these bodies, therefore let us stay blind for now and hope we have the answer in the in final time.

I am not sure I feel comfortable with hoping for the best when my final moment comes within this body. Am I lying to myself? Am I fooling myself? I must be! Also I can not truly know all I spoke of above from true experience because if I did how can I still choose to stay under control of the guard of the mind, the ego? It can not be anything else then that which I spoke of is pure knowledge! If I truly knew from experience I would be in Enlightenment right now! Is it not my dearest Ozay? I spoke this morning to Aashan about the difference in knowing and knowledge. If I truly knew my addiction I would no longer be addicted, is it not?

When the final time comes you will recognise everything and it will not be so difficult, it is only when you struggle with so called death is when it is difficult that will be the measure of your attachments up to the measure of you difficulty.

I do not think you lie to yourself subconsciously, deep down you have the answer and you "KNOW", for now... See more stimulation will keep you occupied until that day of transition comes.

If enlightenment comes life can no longer be the play that has kept you buffered from the truth, but deep down you know and you are just willing to play out the scene you are here to play out, without your play how could you have blessed so many lives as you now have including mine, we are here to do something in the great epic play.

Yes thank you my husband, that make total sense, thank you for reminding me.

When you mention I will only struggle with so-called death when that time has come depending on my attachment to this play, is it not that fear of death that keeps me in illusion called life, in this play, in this illusion of being real as an identity? and that I take your wise words, that I know deep down, as an excuse to keep doing what I am doing at this moment which is satisfying myself in my daily doings, like editing videos making photos, writing spiritual texts, portraying my love onto you, etc.

I am just the same reflection in the mirror that you see in yourself so it is with me.